To be silent is to infold,
like some flowers when night comes,
and to open, by the chemistry of darkness,
to another black luminescence
from within the central fountain
that light unseen except
by the eternal flower maker
peeking through the other
pair of eyes
to listen as if
it were the simplest atom of the voice
like the astonished awakening of sex.

If we want to own the rose we must bring about its death,
shatter the sacred continuity of its cycle.
All death comes as an act of possession.
Beauty dies because of our compulsion to understanding
cannot satisfy itself with its lack of answers;
it must prod the timeless freshness of its scent.
Man’s hands are wilting machines.
Whatever he touches dies
because he is the hand of death.
And then he wonders: “why do things vanish,
why is my yearning for persistence always met with loss…?
Because we want to possess the rose
-the moment as fleeting as the freshness-
because things possessed and known
travel in time where death is the ultimate destination
and we are the deaths’ dark knights.

The word spins whirlwinds in my mind
dancing in the midst
of dreamland, unattached,
a soul
without a body.

“Father, – I said
resting my serious head upon his lap,
what is freedom”?

(A shadow on his face,
a glint of joy,
both paradoxically present.)

“Freedom lives at the heart of illusion.
Therefore, my child,
to have her you must have all your dreams
Among the fragments
you will find her,
like a gleaming jewel…”

“Freedom, oh God, freedom…”
Teach me how to fly
without barriers or boundaries.”
And he came down upon the shore
striking me down with a blast of lightning.
And all my illusions were scattered on the spot.
All my tears cried forever
and all my laughter spent.

Depleted I stood, aghast.
Totally and absolutely empty.
And then he kissed my cheek and said,
– “Now you are free”.

Writhing in greatest agony and despair
I watched the horizon disappear
and felt the sprouting
of new wings.
And in my total emptiness
I was free,
and gladly paid the price:

– “Man – he explained softly
is the illusion hunter,
forever enchaining himself
in the vision,
entrapped till eternity
in his dream of beauty and perfection.”

– “Man – he spoke quietly
is the illusion maker,
building a universe of truths
on the structure of a lie.
He ought to see that truth lies
in the denial of all illusion.
By then, man, who remains enmeshed
in his dreams, is not a man.
He must give up his castles in the clouds
And come darting into his center.
Then he shall be free,
and only then he shall be a man.”

Come, you feared and longed for bird of rebirth,
I invite you to execute your sacred ritual
in and with my soul…
Come burn away this flame,
squelch the fire,
transmute this organic amalgam of earthly baseness
into cosmic ashes,
burn the fundamental building block of lies,
make room for the magical bird
that soars impelled like a comet in love
with infinity on wings that are
a kaleidoscope of jeweled dawns and sunsets
beyond the reach of time
or the confining holds of space…

I do as you say:
I lay myself on the burning desert sands
under the scorching sun;
watch the buzzards hover in circles,
-their dance of death-
see them approach to check for the stench
of putrefaction every so often,
knowing that soon they will make their final approach
when the last light of time and memory is still warm,
to sever the vessel that connects you to known time,
the vessel of oblivion will be open then,
the feared unknown trembling you will feel
as it spills out the guts of your soul
on the desert’s sand
to nourish the creatures of a past
that will soon die
that will soon rest in the arms of Lethe.

I lay under the endless starless night
of total silence and wait,
hoping without certainty
for an unknown light of redemption;
listening to the concert of the insect orchestra
in the windless air hum their insane song
and wait for the feared yet longed for death
of the known, the remembered,
stored in Mnemosyne’s caskets,
the living death we live and to which we must all die
in order to be reborn
as a phoenix, out of the ashes of oblivion
as a glorious new dawn
after the extinction of the universe,
for god’s word to shake the universe from slumber
back into light.

Each flower is innocent:
she is a song of yielding to Nature
received as given, without questioning.

Each flower is innocent:
she is perfection in loveliness and goodness
by her submission to Nature’s decree which reads
“thou shalt reflect infinite beauty in a finite garden”.

Each flower is innocent:
she gives boundless joy to the heart,
untouched by men’s thought on life or science.
She knows not even that she is or is a thing called flower.
There are no words hanging from her petals,
or libraries –altering the aroma of heaven-
in which to study herself.

Each flower is innocent:
in the single contentment of being
she bursts through the ground, blossoms and withers
according to the rhythms and cycles etched in her memory.
She does not disturb the universal silence by asking
“why am I rooted in this damp sweet earth?
what is my source and my finality?”

Every flower is innocent:
when Spring’s light warms the garden,
she frolics, naked, in the breeze, thankful
for the gentle ray that travels from afar to touch her.
Her wisdom rewards as she explodes into glorious flowering.
Singing the song of gladness.

Each flower is innocent:
she knows not of joy or pain, life or death.
She remains forever empty, yet fills men’s hearts,
as a language of joy in their loves and of comfort in their pains.
In the flowering season she remembers the secrets of rebirth;
life’s memory is woven into a serenity of petals,
the ambrosia of pollen, the pride of stem.
Open and unafraid, she invites
the bee to feast on her.

Each flower is innocent:
she is the dance of light reborn as beauty,
within her glorious harmony speaks a quiet voice;
the key to a sacred universe is held…
Yet, she knows nothing,
absolutely nothing.

“I am invisible…”-you said,
as I, perplexed, contemplated your face
and heard your voice
and touched your hand –
so seemingly concrete, fashioned
as if from stone, fire, water, air and earth -.

“I am invisible…”-you said.
Eyes shut closed by veils of ghosts,
how blind I was! And being thus
I could not see that invisible you
which hand will never touch
nor eye will see, nor time destroy,
that which earth
shall never swallow or rivers drown.

That invisible you will remain
forever intact as it always has been;
the perfect, pure and untainted soul you are
will always fly aloft
will always soar above the mundane pains and joys,
it will always be here with me
as I am with myself.

As long as I can see this invisible self
you are, I’ll never be alone,
never away from you
nor you from me
for far beyond the reaches of the flesh
we have always been and always will be
one forever.

The stars will rise and set.
Universes will be born and die.
Men’s dreams will stir and fade into oblivion.
The rains will come and the rivers swell,
the tree-frog will whisper secrets to the flowering grass.
A dog will send its bark sailing to the moon at night
as you rock in your porch.

And the ancient oak tree will dry
and weep for you,
remembering a you
who never rested his head against its trunk.
And when the last bell of destiny has tolled,
and all men’s dreams are put to rest,
we will always be together, for eternity…

Georgia O'Keeffe

The children lurk
absconded in darkness,
shreds and shards of a broken self:
floating fragments
in the universal void within.
They smile and chant and play
forever alien to themselves.
My smiling and chanting and playing
are but the faceless echoes
of their calling out to darkness
for redemption,
for an unknown light
vaguely remembered
as in a dream…

I awaken in the misty hours before dawn

and before the first glimmer of lucidity
stirs my senses; you are already filling
all the spaces of my life.

Your unknown face: conjured
as a puzzle, from bits relayed in words,
but fashioned, mostly, from parts
of other faces I have loved.

Your voice is heard again,
resurrected from the storage shelves of memory,
its softness, its dark and infinite warmth
-textured almost like a touch-
calls my name… I tremble.

Then, surges that longing of ages:
the unending ocean of desire
swelling in waves
stretching its tentacles across space
to reach your shores…
In the secret chambers of my mind I whisper
your name, softly,
look into your imagined face,
and your imagined hands reach out to me.

Your electrifying touch travels across
the entire topography of my form,
visiting and revisiting those places
where my longing calls them…
My body convulses at the inevitable joy:
the tenuous links between body and soul
are severed and I escape into an open space
of love unendurable.

I wonder if at this hour,
in another distant darkened room,
you were startled by the call of my heart,
awakened and listened for a phrase…
And watched the shadows dancing on the wall
expecting my form to become flesh;
and when it did not
you mourned, as I do, this unborn child,
this love always potential:
condemned to purity essential.

We are being textualized to extinction…

In the beginning  was the word
and the word  became flesh.

Now,  we,  converted into text,
are only known through our words
and the word that we name ourselves with.

So  how do we  translate ourselves
back into flesh?

Must  we  become gods?

Calla, que está hablando la roca
con sus voces eternas.
Calla, que está llorando la roca
sus siglos cristalizados
inmensos, profundos, lentos…

Dice que sus momentos
e intervalos
son los momentos
de una vida más grande.
No digas nada
que escucho
sus suspiros de sangre,
gigantescos y dolorosos.
Calla, que se queja la roca
porque la gravedad omnívora
del tiempo,
al pasar la va hundiendo
en una evolución inversa.

De la certeza a la paradoja
y de la paradoja a la doble paradoja,
salto cuántico en la mente y de la mente
más allá de sí misma,
de la ciudad murada
el exorcismo frente al cementerio
en pos de la montaña sagrada
del no saber

Un saber que es un no saber
-paradoja del intelecto-
haciéndose no intelecto
suprimiéndose como intelecto
para poder conocer el enigma
de lo que no puede ser conocido
para concebir lo inconcebible
que es más inconcebible aún
al concebirse un concebir sin saber;
del mismo modo que se concibe
una nueva vida sin un saber,
cómo sin ella misma saber de su concepción,
sin yo saber que ha sido concebida
con el misterio en el mismo centro de su corazón
como su átomo nuclear

Es y no es
no es y no no-es
pero definitivamente no está.

Sin embargo, nada de lo que es
podría ser sin que el misterio esté
y no esté primero
porque ese no estar y no dejar de estar,
ese no ser y no dejar de ser,
abre el camino para que el ser sea.

Este sentir de profundidades oceánicas
ondea en las entrañas de mi yo perpetuo:
distancia y cercanía en abrazo solemne.
Tiempos y espacios inéditos se saludan
en el sacratísimo templo de la inmensidad
que sorprende por no ser buscada
y envuelve como primera madre sin nombre.
Sin ningún otro nombre que este sacro sentir
de su callada presencia amorosa
inseparable de la mía misma.

¡No! Calla…
Faltan silencios.
Sobran palabras.
Nos ahogamos en un mar de palabras
tan vacías como un silencio,
que no es el silencio que falta
el que se nos muere por dentro
por falta de oído.

Agua de mar a río refluye.
Sí de mar a río.
En cósmica inversión de lágrimas
que saltan del mundo a los ojos,
que se encampanan
hasta llegarme a la cumbre del alma.

Dolor dulce y tierno este es.
Cuando el mundo se vuelca,
se para de cabeza y todo lo niega.

Ay, el mar trepa por el río
en ascendente cascada.
La escarpada pendiente de los montes escala
y los peces gozan soñando con nadar
sobre la copa de un roble florecido
como un helado de fresas.

El río es mar que ríe subiendo
hasta su comienzo.

Infinito alado de mis ensueños.
Surges como un fénix de mis llagas ancestrales.
Ven, pájaro cósmico. Ven a llenar mis soledades.
Ven ahora y levántame en vuelo raudo
sobre el vivir de los hombres y las constelaciones,
a ese espacio sin dimensiones,
a ese lugar sin ubicación ni definiciones.
Ven esta noche, pájaro de filigranas cristalinas.
La vida es un hueco que necesita llenarse de luz.
Cometa de mis sueños, te espero acostada sobre la arena,
entre caracoles y cocolías juguetonas.
Dejo que el mar me lama como un perro su llaga.
¿Qué es el hombre sino una llaga sangrante en medio del universo?
¿Qué, sino la forma sólida y visible de la agonía?
La savia de la vida se me escapa.
El fin se acerca y me acechan las oscuridades de la noche cósmica.
No quiero despedirme sin haber visto tu cara,
ni haber gozado el raudo vuelo de mis alas invisibles.
Ven. Te espero. Mi alma muere sin ti.

Ver el rostro del hombre,
el otro rostro escondido detrás de su semblante,
el otro rostro olvidado detrás de la coraza
de palabras y ademanes, y del disimulo triste de su vida…

Ver el rostro del hombre,
el de la mirada asustada detrás del antifaz
con que quiere mirarse,
el que no puede verse en un espejo…

Ver el rostro del hombre,
la faz de ese que tiembla en la oscuridad
diciéndose, diciéndome, diciendo a todos
sus mentiras-verdades…

Ver el rostro del hombre,
el otro rostro de niño desterrado,
solo sin sí mismo, en el universo
con ojos de estrella que miran las estrellas
a través de las lágrimas,
soñando con un lugar perdido y lejano…

Ver el rostro del hombre
-como el mío-
estar con él detrás de su antifaz,
ser tocado por las manos de su soledad
a oscuras en su jaula de arterias, tendones y huesos…

Ver el rostro del hombre
es amarlo.

Surgío como una chispa azul
sondeando el espacio
como un náufrago sol.
Le brotaron alas
al atardecer
y cantando quedó una tarde.
En raudo vuelo se elevó más allá
de las tierras y cosas que nacen y mueren
y circulan como el aire
de baúles viejos al infinito espacio
de los renacimientos.
Y la soledad se quedó esperando
por otro ingenuo que la acompañara.

Amado mío
no turbes el silencio.
Mira qué bello es
el nacimiento de la nada.
Mírala como surge de su nadidad
y nos embriaga con su plenitud.

Cómo brota como el chorro fresco
de una fuente que no está en ningún sitio
y está en todos.
Cómo llega sin venir de parte alguna
otra que de sí misma,
estando como siempre ha estado
al rescoldo de todas las cosas,
como el fuego divino,
como la antorcha que ilumina toda oscuridad.

Escúchala. Calla.
Su palabra es la luz y la sustancia de la vida.
Vibrante de luz como cielo estrellado
surcado por cometas gloriosos.
Como el amor, igual que el amor es la sustancia
que nutre, que nos carga en sus brazos,
que nos amamanta, y nos revela aquella vitalidad
primera, total, absoluta y sin nombre
que es el amor.

Baja –o sube, no lo sé- el sol
del otro lado, auscultando
con sus lenguas tentaculares las cosas.
Despertando el sentido de cada una.
Devolviendo caras y siluetas.
Retornando el sentido a lo insensible
que se olvidó de sí mismo durante la larga noche,
para que, conociéndolo,
se desconozca a sí mismo otra vez;
pero de una nueva manera,
con una inocencia sin estrenar aún.